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Her actual first «Instantblush»


-Hi, is me, I just wanted to say... "I've been missing you"...

No, of course. She couldn't say that or at least, not again. It was true though, but also a lie. She didn't want to know anything about him... since the last time that he broke her heart.


It was a normal day of school when everything started. She was just 15th years old. Exactly two years ago.

-"Hi, will you marry me?" he said. 

Of course she knew he was just fooling around but she wanted to keep playing. It looked like more than just a fun game, tension, which she had never felt before. She kept playing.

 Another day, another text -"Why won't you marry me?" he asked her. 

She said -"You're so funny, lol." 
Little did she know back then that in a couple of weeks he was all she could think off. 

Let's call it "The first day after..." Because it was the first day after she fell in love with him. It was another normal school day, another math test, another boring and annoying day of f****** school. Not for her though. For her it was the day that she will finally see him since Friday. Maybe even sit with him? She felt that dangling thing in her stomach. It was awesome to feel those butterflies, the goosebumps all over your body. Almost like being horny all the time. She had no idea that's what it was though. 

...she was happy, he made her happy or at least that's what she thought...

Their first picture together, AWESOME! Now maybe, he will update his profile picture with her.

 -Disappointment #1: He didn't.

"Is just a silly picture. Dont overthink this." She thought. 

It was Friday night and she stayed at a girlfriend's house, they were going to "study". 

 -"What are you doing?"
*seen at 9:05pm*...
*writing...*
-I'm at my friend's house, wanna come?" he said. 
She felt like going up to the sky and coming back to hell. All at the same time. That was her actual first «Instantblush» She thought. He knew she was at with her friend, so, he said quickly -"But, only you. Okay?." She felt bad. What would her friend think? She was staying at her place after all "What kind of  person ditches her friend for a boy?." She thought.

10:05pm she was in front of the door of his friend's house... alone. She wasn't thinking, all her blood was in every single part of her body except her brain. She knew what could happen and she was afraid of that. She had waited for so long. She snapped out of it and there he was. Tall, big, dark eyes, pink-soft-woman lips, short hair.

 -"Hi", he said. All she could do was look at those lips that she just wanted to bite and rip off. WOW. Hold it together she thought. 

-"So, where is everybody?" She knew the answer to that. 

-"They went out. Get some beers. You know…" he said.

-"Oh! Okay, that's cool" She said with a really not convincing voice.

He showed her his friend's house. A really big house. She could hear her thoughts, the sweat dripping from the back of her head. The house had belong to some important politician guy many years ago. He took her to a cute patio where there was a grill and what it looked like a backyard table they both sat at.

-"How many things do you have on this bag?." he asked seated in the right side of the table, kinda close to her. 

-"Not too much." She said. He started to look inside. She wasn't going to stop him, why? She didn't have anything to hide. Laughs, fun, joy, smiles, deep looks, jokes, BOOM!

By the time she realized what she was doing and where she was... her lips, where against his. All her body got really warm, she started to really feel hot, and it was a chilly night. She couldn't understand what was going on with her body. She had kissed before... but this was different. 

That was it. 

              -Disappointment #2:  He didn't call.

She didn't hear from that boy. Never again. So, officially he had broken her heart, for the first time.


 MCH


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